losing touch,losing the plot,at a crossroads in my life,or what?

i log in here,
see a screen full (18 to be exact ) of unread posts,
and i'm just not interested.

not critcising or complaining,
but what going on with me?

yes,
i shall keep looking in.

and i don't see myself leaving.

trying very hard to get my head sorted out here.
and i think i'm heading for crisis talks with the landlady.
i don't know how much longer i can live in these conditions.

yes,
i know that my home-life is of my own making,
and i have been very un-reasonable with my son,
( how many fathers turn their back on a 14 yr old offspring,and never speak to them ever again whilst living in the same house?
i shouldn't have let it come to this,
should have walked away years ago,
but i didn't have the courage.

and now i find myself unable to cope with the situation,and a wife who has been diagnosed with a condition that will eventually render chair-bound.

i don't come out of this smelling of roses do i?

erixter wrote:i log in here,
see a screen full (18 to be exact ) of unread posts,
and i'm just not interested.

not critcising or complaining,
but what going on with me?

yes,
i shall keep looking in.

and i don't see myself leaving.

trying very hard to get my head sorted out here.
and i think i'm heading for crisis talks with the landlady.
i don't know how much longer i can live in these conditions.

yes,
i know that my home-life is of my own making,
and i have been very un-reasonable with my son,
( how many fathers turn their back on a 14 yr old offspring,and never speak to them ever again whilst living in the same house?
i shouldn't have let it come to this,
should have walked away years ago,
but i didn't have the courage.

and now i find myself unable to cope with the situation,and a wife who has been diagnosed with a condition that will eventually render chair-bound.

i don't come out of this smelling of roses do i?

I can only see 2 scenarios eric, you either look after number 1 (yourself) by making a move and getting a place of your own and making a good go of it. or you try your best to get on with your wife and son, by joining in, going out and doing things together and maybe things will get alot better between you all and a better life at home.

Carrying on as it is, is doing none of you any good whatsoever imo.

You are suffering from depression Eric.
Please tell the doctor. He can help alleviate your misery.

Apathy breeds apathy, eric - it's all in your own hands and head, it's all up to you.

If they really don't have the nous to change then only you can make them, if you don't, nothing will change other than you will all get older, less healthy and less interested.

It can go on for another month or two and if it can do that it can go on for another year or two, ad infinitum.

It's a life for some people, "what the fuck" as bertie bassett used to say.

I still reckon you should book that train ticket to a seaside resort somewhere and get some sea air, fish and chips and plenty of booze down your neck, you could even think about things away from home, which might help give a fresh perspective on things, if not, have a fucking good jolly on your own anyway.

Failing any of this, I recommend increasng significantly your intake of cider, start smoking heavily and consider occasional recreational drug use and if anyone says anything, tell 'em to fuck off and mind their own business.

This consultancy was free, future consultations may attract charges.

Faithfully

Dr A Kowalski mbcs pisshead & cunt

can't/won't/don't want to join in.
i don't know if wife has got to where i am yet,
but we're not a family,
and the marriage means nothing,
lardthing can go piss up a rope,
we reside in the same building,
that's all.

nobby ........................

if when i reach my limit,
and it might blow over,
i hope that we can calmly sit down and let her work out what this place actually costs,and if she thinks her and the thing can keep things going here,they can have it.

DR.ABKO,
thank you for that.

i think that it might just go on until one of us die.

so much to work out,
easier to just go on as we are.
thankfully i work nights,wich is a big plus.

torn two ways right now,
and i really don't know.

no self-confidence,
or feelings of self-worth,
and no light at the end of the tunnel.
maybe she'll get brave and ask me to leave.

she'll always have her baby,
he's not going anywhere anytime soon.

erixter wrote:can't/won't/don't want to join in.
i don't know if wife has got to where i am yet,
but we're not a family,
and the marriage means nothing,
lardthing can go piss up a rope,
we reside in the same building,
that's all.

nobby ........................

if when i reach my limit,
and it might blow over,
i hope that we can calmly sit down and let her work out what this place actually costs,and if she thinks her and the thing can keep things going here,they can have it.

In all seriousness then eric, CAB can help as if lardthing is entitled to benefit and if she ends up housebound/disabled she will be entitled to extra benefits, between the two of them they'll get plenty to keep the house and he can have a career being Lou to her Andy with a pay off of having it all when she goes.

Sounds harsh but if there's that much apathy about it could suit all round as best-fit options for them and giving you the chance to make a break and have your very own dungeon of despair by the seaside

This consultation was a bonus consultation.

Dr A Kowalski mbcs pisshead & cunt

hey eric

maybe you do need some sort break/holiday
get to the seaside as Abdul says
having a few days away will give you space and time to think
doesnt sound like you want to work at things, so maybe a clean break is for the best.

x

hello spots.

this is about all i can reasonably expect from life.
i gotta bed and something to eat,
and could be a lot worse eh?

just,
it's shit ain' it.

i'll get over it,
i have to.