how's this for controversial?radical?mad?crazy?2012?

i was reading,
the other day,
about male/female perceptions,
preconceptions,
how we "play the game".

how about,
boy meets girl.
boy fancies girl.
feelings mutual,
maybe?

attraction mutual?
maybe.

why can't women meet us halfway on this?

if a bloke says outright,
"look! i find you attractive.okay?
am i just after a shag?
well,
yes?
maybe.
honestly,i don't know.
probably. ( deal with it )
can we at least say hello?
yes?
no?
whatever.
but hey!
talk to me ffs.
tell me where you're at.
and i'll do same.
or vice versa.
it's cool.
but these games are absolute bllx.
jesus!
say something.
if only fuck off.

yes i'm talking about "you know who".
those long stares,
maybe they were "look! fuckin back off" stares.
messages,
"tacit",
"wise up you thick cnut".
well yes,
i AM a thick cnut,
in that department.
okay,
so i imagine.
i fantasise.
don't we all?

i nicked two £1.90. in the brugge game.

i know the feeling won't last.
cos i'm a wimp.
and it's driving me to distraction.

after years,
yes YEARS!

of deliberation,
i finally broke the the silence with ykw.

so,
she was smillie,happy,chatty for a while.
donned the slap.
as they do.

and me?
i acted like a fuckin 13yr old.
now she's gone.
and i'm left wondering.

maybe she WASN'T interested.

i shall never know.

and it's the "not knowing" that cuts.

am really desperate to end this life of misery but how?

i mean,
if it takes say 3yrs to say hello.

it's over,
the game's up.

and all what might have been,
or not,
well,


my life.


sorry geezers,
but,
i don't know what to do.

if only i had a redeeming feature or three.

and i tell myself "maybe next time".

their might not BE a next time.

also,
i'm a married man.

makes feel like a leper.

have a nice day juicers.

You've become obsessed with her mate.
Take it down a notch.

yeah,
i know.

it's my wimpishness that gets me down mate.
and knowing that if i ever meet somebody else,
it will go the same way.

For every 100 women you walk up to and say "let's fuck", 95 will slap you, four will grin, one will take you on.

4% comedy, cheeks the colour and heat of a blast furnace but by thunder I've seen some clunge...