insomnia

Guest Mon Jan 03, 2011 8:34 am

it's a bugger.
went to bed early,hoping to get off before the wife.
seemed a good idea,i was still awake when she got in beside me.
i lie there,trying hard to be still.
and in a moment she's dead to the world.
i listen to her breathing,
deep,and gusty,like smithies bellows.
mine,by contrast,short and shallow.
pleased don't snore,i plead inwardly,
not another night on that fuckin hard floor.
so, hour,upon hour,feeling every sensation,
starkly aware of my bodily aches and pains.
darkness,stillness,mind-numbing nothingness.
i must've dozed off,or napped at some point,surely!
you can't not sleep.can you?
i could go and sit downstairs,
but what would be the point?
eventually,relief,as a crack of light appears above the curtain,
and i wonder if it's a somebody's garden light,
then i hear a dove,cooing,fuckin row.
nope,it's getting light.
then her alarm goes off,her whole body jerks with the shock.
and in the blink of an eye,the snooze button is pressed firmly down.
three times the alarm is silenced.
might as well get up,make a cuppa,put the heating on, LOG on.
i'm gonna have an"eat night" tonight.
maybe that'll help.
ought to at least try to start the week right.
back to work tmorra night,maybe that'll put me right.
oh i hope so.

it's funny,i'm feeling so awake right now,but when it comes to playtime on the exchange,i sit here,staring at the screen,i feel myself nodding,and then ,alerted by the sudden realisation that my chin is pressing against my chest,i force my body into an upright position.
maybe it is then that i should go to bed.
but what then?how on earth would i deal with the night-time?
never mind,back to work tomorrow night.
work,sleep,and routine.
maybe.

have a nice,and prosperous day you lot. insomnia 38011