this is so surreal,same old'same old.sorry.

like,
is this really happening

lardthing,
sitting crosslegged on the sofa sideways on.
can you imagine that?
20 yrs old.

the wife sitting glued to the telly.

i walk through and speak,and it's like,
nothing.
is she?are they?really there?
am i really here?

it's insane.

Stab 'em both.

i'm the one who should be stabbed mate.

was thinking about a weekend in eastbourne,
go see the sisters,
but it would be a waste of time,
trip would be a break,
but the thought of returning would tarnish the experience.

eric, if you've got a chance of a weekend away with sisters, go for it man, the break will be more than worth coming back to what you'd be doing anyway if you didn't go

a weekend by the seaside, food and drink sorted, pubs, footy, fish and chips - what more do you want?

i meant the seven sisters,
those white cliffs.

aah, erm, well - try southend, that's okay for a weekend by the sea and if you throw yourself over the edge the worst would probably be a sprained ankle

was thinking/hoping that maybe if i went,
i might be drawn to them somehow,
and maybe just do it,
but deep down,
i know it aint gonna happen.

a weekend away once a month or two would be something to look forward to eric

ABKO,
i've got no drive,
no get up and go.
content to sit and vegetate.

and really,
travelling doesn't interest me.

we can talk,and debate,
but the fact is,
i'm just a hopeless cnut.

i keep regurgitating the same old bollox,
and i do nothing.

try it, just once - you never know

a few hours on the train and you could vegetate elsewhere in more pleasant surroundings

i've thought about that.
and an opportunity might just present itself,
if i'm not to blinded by bitterness and resentment to see it.

but i'm chained to this place mate.

no you're not, you get up and leave it tp go to work so just buy the train ticket and when you leave the house one friday just leave a note saying you'll be back sunday and jump on the fecking train

mmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

anyway, i'm off out, just get the train ticket and see

tbh,
i really can't see my home situation lasting much longer.
surely it drives them up the wall to.

will wait until it all falls down,
and then hopefully we'll both move on.

Abdul Kowalski wrote:anyway, i'm off out, just get the train ticket and see

okay mate.
you take care.

and thanks for chatting.