Y'KNOW? ***borrrrrrrring***

i could quite easily sit here and drink myself into a stupor.
obviouly i can't and/or won't.
financial constraints,job,life obligations etc.
but if,
i suddenly found myself very well off;
it would take at least a couple of months,
of doing absolutely nothing,
going nowhere,
seeing nobody,
and yes,
a drink induced stupor.
one,that i'm sure,
i would eventually tire of,
snap OUT of,
before i would even consider,
re-joining the living.

what i would do then,
is anybody's guess.

i crave financial-security,
don't we all?
with a life of isolation.
but i think that i would tire of that also.

but with money,
you can buy yourself some company,
as and when.

if only i could find a busy forum,
or three.

then people,
i mean REAL people,
( ugh! dirty horrible creatures )
really wouldn't matter.

i bought newspapers for my mother and myself,
on the way home yesterday.
and left 'em on the fuckin bus.
how's that for an aside?

and now,
i wish i'd got my mail.

had a fuck-all saturday.
have managed to pick a betfair pocket or two today,
and made a couple of beans.

and life in the bunker slowly,painfully,minute by god-damned awful minute,drips on.
slips away.

"down'down,
deeper 'n' down."
status quo.




















































ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ha'ha'ha.


and a lovely-wonderful-nice day 2 u all.

i've just realised.

bored guest.
sorry sheil.
i'm in a bit of a hole right now.
you,
will,
i hope,
understand.
i'm just rambling.
okay?