trawling the vacancy-sites.

what i wouldn't give for a change.

i think what i REALLY need,
is a complete LIFE-CHANGE.

job,

home address,
different part of the country,
something that'll breathe some life into me.
new clothes even.

and cohabitation,
i need to lose that also.
maybe it's just a passing phase.
all just part of the ageing process.

and maybe i really SHOULD talk to somebody.
but like i said to the sams,
only i can make the change.

it's all down to me isn't it.

so,
nothing changes.

maybe it's a genetic thing,
like we are what we are,
and that's it.

maybe there IS,
a "saddo,self-pityin,woeful,beaten down,poor old me"gene.

the ericster-gene.

DAMN!
that made me laugh.
i don't feel like laughing,
don't WANT to laugh.

frowning now,
that's better.

fk it,
no i'm not.

i'm smiling.