beachy head: a visitation,calling,whatever. NOBBY! re: my sig.

for many nights over christmas,
i had this vision every time i closed my eyes.
those words,
carved in stone,
a mile high,
BEACHY HEAD.
like beacon calling/beconning me.

NO!
i'm not talkking about topping myself.
it's like i need to go there,
feel,
experience the place.
a pilgrimage,
sort of.
and i can't understand it.

i wish i could tell all of those who jumped,
and all of those yet to jump,
that's it's not their fault,
they're not the bad guys,
they're aren't/weren't being selfish,
and not to feel bad about themselves.
and that it's okay.

oh dear,
does that make any sense/
i gotta go now.

i need to be there for them.

ttt.

ramping fao nobster

what ffs?