when 3ltrs doesn't even come close to being enough.

oh dear.

it's a slippery slope isn't it.



i'm sure that right now,
i could comfortably consume 6ltrs per weekend.
and if i did,
how long before 6 becomes 8?
and 8 becomes 10?
also,
there's my abusing the wife.
well,
she said,
i was giving her abuse when she came to bed on a saturday night,
wouldn't say what,or how.
i can't believe that i could ever threaten her physically.
no way.
i grew up with that shit.
but that aside,
the cost to both my pocket,
and personal well-being.
where does pleasure end?
and alcoholism start?
i am so enjoying perusing the sunday coupon,checking out form,and glugging a jar or three.
and by bottle is almost empty.
yes,i can handle it.
i have another bottle,
but i won't open it.
honest.
oh dear.
coffee it is then.

have a nice day you three.

the ster.

i was leaving my bottle un-touched until sunday.
way to go i think.
but on a saturday afternoon,
as with sunday morning,
it is SO NICE.

Be careful....alcoholism isn't pretty.

no,
i don't suppose that it is.

tell you what,
if i ever made money,
i mean serious money.
as in packing up working for a living.
i would degenerate,
so much,
so quickly.

and as intelligent as i credit myself with being,
i don't think that i would mind.

i think that it's a route,
THE ROUTE,
that i would take.

what miserable reading THAT would make for you guys.

My brother became a fully fledged alcoholic by the time he was 28.....died at 52.

nobster,
no offence intended.

KNOW THAT.

but for me,
early death?
i can't remember NOT wanting to die.
and if being out of ones head,
on drink,or whatever,
totally relieves a person of awareness,and resposibility,
well,
how bad can that be?

i'm sorry mate,
but for me,
actual death,
isn't a worry.

how i die,
is all that concerns me.

as i've said before;
T.O.L.S.O.D.

tied of living,scared of dying.

if i ever went the alco-way.
i'd be self-financing.
so,
no REAL harm done.

I'M NOT BEING FLIPPANT.
AND I'M NOT TRIVIALISING HERE.

that's just me.
erixter,
in the raw.

living for my job.

that's all that keeps me on the straight and narrow.