well,it's been the "cold-shoulder" for a couple of days.

if/when we're talking again,
i've a mind to start asking her about herself.
her name for a start.
and if she says "mind your own fuckin business",
well,that's clear enough.
maybe she'll work it out.
if she hasn't already.
and then we shall see.

i rather suspect that she was having thoughts about me when i bottled it and blanked last year.
wishful thinking maybe.

i need her to know what's going on with me.

if it means that she suddenly isn't there any more,
i can live with that.