insanity beckoning.....

long empty weekends.
alone.
speaking to no-one.
never being spoken to.

i don't want to "get out more".

i don't want to "get out."

at all.

but this is driving me up the wall.

a whole weekend can pass without my uttering a word.

except for a couple of hours chatting with my mother.

i spend all week,
doing a job that i no longer like,
or feel up to.
with people that i really do not like.
for the pleasures of my bunker.

i just googled chat.
what a fucking world.

oh well,
at least monday brings movement and a reason to get out of bed.

god i'm bored.

ready to bed down for the night.