might be best if i have a few days away from here.

i seem to be on a bit of a low right now,
or rather,
i can feel one coming on.

i shall only embarrass myself if i log-in.
you don't need it.
and i don't need it.

it's all same old.

thinking about doc's again.
but i know that it won't happen.
oh dear.

life..................................

erixter wrote:i seem to be on a bit of a low right now,
or rather,
i can feel one coming on.

i shall only embarrass myself if i log-in.
you don't need it.
and i don't need it.

it's all same old.

thinking about doc's again.
but i know that it won't happen.
oh dear.

life..................................

Chin up mate, this is your place for venting, and we like to read your vents

Yes let's have vents like this...........

Liverpool City Council circa 1972, that.

well,
nice of you t'say boat.

just looked in to catch up on posts.

just so tired right now.

You need:

nobster,
i've thought about that,
and maybe i'd be the sort to top myself having taken it,
because in my very best/happiest moment,
i STILL see life as pointless.
a total waste of time,
not worth the bother etc.

I think it would do you wonders personally.
You have nothing to lose.
Give them a try.

i WOULD actually like to talk to a doctor,
but i just can't see beyond how embarrassed i'd be.
i cringe thinking about it.

we,
well,
you,
are assuming that i wouldn't just get told to bugger off of course.

and as far as these questionaires go,
i am a borderline case i think,
because,
really,
i'm never going to top myself.
it really is a case of,
tired of living,scared of dying.
so how low i might get,
is totally irrelevant.

GP's are seeing people wih depression 20 times a week.
You won't stand out.
But you WILL get help.

maybe.

i just can't do it mate.

it's so embarrassing.

bitofatwat wrote:

erixter wrote:i seem to be on a bit of a low right now,
or rather,
i can feel one coming on.

i shall only embarrass myself if i log-in.
you don't need it.
and i don't need it.

it's all same old.

thinking about doc's again.
but i know that it won't happen.
oh dear.

life..................................

Chin up mate, this is your place for venting, and we like to read your vents

this is not venting.

it's whinging.

and it shames me.

and i gotta get ready for work.

thanks for your input nobster.
i appreciate it.
really.

Just do it man.

Nobby Cheese wrote:You need:

Scary thing is that is
(i) Actual size
(ii) A suppository

NotBert wrote:

Nobby Cheese wrote:You need:

Scary thing is that is
(i) Actual size
(ii) A suppository

i and ii

if i knew where to go,
i'd buy some off a dealer.
just to see if they made any difference.

i REALLY don't think that a doctor would be interested.

erixter wrote:if i knew where to go,
i'd buy some off a dealer.
just to see if they made any difference.

i REALLY don't think that a doctor would be interested.

He would Eric, GP's and their surgeries are now run as business's and you are their customer, they also take suicidal thoughts very seriously. Like Tony says get yourself down their and open your heart out to him/her

suicide is just a dream boat.

("dreamboat" )

seriously though,

real suiciders don't constantly bang-on about it.

the thing is,
i can see,
just how "low risk" i would seem to a doctor.

okay,
so i'm totally miserable.
24/7.

the world's full of people like that.

i'm having a phase right now.

it'll pass.