"love changes everything" tum'tee'tum! WHAT?

i've been whistling and singing that to myself all afternoon.

WTF is going on with me?

well,
actually,
i think i know what it is.

i have these long phases,
of doom,gloom,and despondency.
eventually,
like a few days ago,
it comes to a peak,
something inside of me bursts,
it leaves me feeling quite,
well,
numb for a while,
there's this incredible euphoric almost,
surge/rush,
is the only way to desribe it.

and then,
the dirt,
the mud,
the filth and the grime,
starts all over again.

if i ever ran into stickie feeling like this,

but i won't.
a night's work will take the shine off.

and anyway,
i just know she'd run away,
like a scared rabbit.
and i'd never see her again.

having said that,
i've been feeling knackered this week,
and couldn't be bothered to rush to the bus-stop.
but she'll be there,
at her usual time.

it's heady stuff happiness.
i feel quite dangerous.
the sooner i get to work the better.