feeling really weird right now,

in a daze,
kind of.
subdued,
not really with it.
y'know?

just been trawling a jobsite.

and it was all a blur.

i want to work,
of course i do.
and in the right situation,
i can,do,and WILL,
apply myself totally.

but,
i'm feeling so lacklustre right now,
i doubt that anything would appeal to me.

not that i'm very employable now,
at my age.

and so,
i shall just quietly hang around,
listening to the creaks and moans of the house,
and the wind outside.

unable to muster any enthusiasm .
everything seems/feels such a waste of time right now.

not in a hopeless,desperate,suicidal way,

just,
i feel so detached,
can't explain.

it'll all kick in when it's time to get ready for work.

and now i'm smiling,
thinking about offering and apology for all this crap.

and imagining you people telling me that it's okay.

you're a good lot juicers.


a ps to mg and sheil.

thanks eric.but get to the docs eh

yeah i know.