resisting the call of the bed.

i have to go and collect a bodywarmer that i odered last week.
i don't want to be feeling like shit,
tired and groutchy.
come to think of it,
that IS how i feel.24/7.
anyway.
just in case i bump into "you know who ".
but i shouldn't think that i will.
maybe i should talk to her and seek an agreed arrangement about whether i/we should speak,or even nod to each other on such occurrences.
oh the hell,of not knowing what to do.
how to react,in such a way so as not to offend.
well anyway,
i can't NOT GO tmorra.
i think i know her walking habits well enough to keep out of her way.
but who knows?
so i need to get some sleep tonight.
not right now.

there's nothing to bet on.
i got no-one to talk to.
let alone anything to say.
and being confined to the bunker,
sleep doesn't seem such a bad idea.
polar bears at the zoo.
childhood memory that haunts.

and i'm just finishing my last jar of tj.
farewell old friend.