was just about to e-mail this to a female online friend,****mega'mega boring alert****

who's family business,
and marriage,
is slowly slipping down the plug-hole.

........................................
online friends keep saying to me,
"ffs see your doctor,you're depressed".
and i think about that.
what if?

what if they're right?

and what if?

i went to see a doctor.
and i got help.
and suddenly i realised how ridiculous my life was.
and how phoney it all is.
and decided that life didn't have to be like this,
and that i had options.
and got selfish.
made changes,
did things,made decisions, for me.

moved out ,
and moved on.

and,
and,
and.

people say sometimes,
that "it's for the best".
easy for them to say huh!
but then,
whatabout me?

and maybe i DO deserve better.

and maybe it's better the devil that you know.

maybe,
maybe,
maybe.

ifs,buts,and maybe's.
welcome to my world.Crying face


oh ******.
maybe you're braver,
stronger than me.Embarrased smile.

the "bird in the gilded cage"syndrome.

she's at the thresh-hold.

and not sure what to do.
and i'm gonna go back into html,
and delete that shit.

erixter.


probably gonna look a bigger cnut than ever now.
but there you go.

i've given away another piece of myself.

sometimes in life eric....you just gotta take the chance!

sorry it took me so long to answer btw, the kids have just left....the weekend begins now!

sheilalma wrote:sometimes in life eric....you just gotta take the chance!

saying that...i almost did something similar a while ago but so glad i didnt, so dunno really!

sheilalma wrote:sometimes in life eric....you just gotta take the chance!

the stakes are too high sheil.

erixter wrote:

sheilalma wrote:sometimes in life eric....you just gotta take the chance!

the stakes are too high sheil.

you`re as bad as me haha!

it's a bugger ain' it.

erixter wrote:it's a bugger ain' it.

aye!

sheilalma wrote:

will have to give that a miss.
i don't do u2b.

erixter wrote:

sheilalma wrote:

will have to give that a miss.
i don't do u2b.

you could just google the lyrics then! hehe

i'm off to work.
you take care sheil.

erixter wrote:i'm off to work.
you take care sheil.

ok, dont work too hard hon x