life,people,society,and why do i have to feel so much?why can't i just not give a shit?ARGH!

J..F..C.

i go to visit my mother every morning.
and when conversation dries up,
she talks about family goings-on.

and then i think of the people that i work with.
and i know that i'm the nigger in the wood-pile,
because without me,
they really DO get along well together.
i just don't belong.
what can i do?

"om not a fugg".
that statement shall live with me for ever.
ugg fuckin ugg.


anger,sadness,frustration,regret,
the whole picnic,
in one basket.

and then i read a newspaper.

i just want out,
or ideally,
a place away from everything,
and everybody.
i wish i could shut myself away.

it's not them,
it's me.
i know that.
but what's a person to do?

it's embarrassing to say that i'm just too sensitive.

i see,hear,feel,so much.
it's horrible.
and it hurts like hell.

so why can't i just let it all pass me by?
why do i have to acknowledge,
think about stuff,
stuff that i have no control over.
and why must it matter?
why do i have to care?
why me?

bollux'bollux'bollux.


i'm sorry.

hug?

fuck em all eric, sometimes i woudl rather live on this planet purely with animals... fuck humans.. annoying selfish retarted species.

yeah,
it's tough sometimes.

wish i could shut myself away somewhere.

we all need to earn eh?

not too keen on animals tbh.
i don't particularly DIS-like 'em though.

i just wish i could get off,
take a year out maybe.
alone.

not wash,comb my hair,shave or fk all.
total howard hughes.