there is definitely something wrong with stickie,and my ineptitude.

i rounded the corner of the road to my bus-stop this morning,
and walked straight into her and,
"good morning ! ha'ha'ha. "
she blurted out,
almost shouting it,
nervously?
i got the feeling that she had resolved to speak if she got the chance,
like she'd programmed herself in readiness for such a situation.

well,
having avoided her for weeks,
and she MUST know that i was avoiding her,
that's it now,
it's entirely up to her.

speak,
don't speak,
whatever.

she still rushes by though,
and i'm sure that she IS married,
i'll just let her get on with it.

this only serves to highlight my total lack of social awareness.
a total inability to understand or communicate.
not just with women.
and why they are never so willing to strike up conversations with strangers.
because of weirdos like me.
her speaking to me,
REALLY didn't/doesn't "MEAN" anything.
why should it?
and that is it,
in a nutshell.



aldi-time.


maybe she just felt awkward with the situation,
and just,
saying hello,
helped somehow.

oh i don't know.

having thought about it,
i think that her speaking was just out of surprise.
it's a tall thick hedge,
and really,
we couldn't have known what was going to happen until we were about a metre away from each other.
i gave her plenty of distance this morning.
and as for feeling awkward,
i don't think that i can be bothered any more.
well,
it's getting that way.
and if it bothered her,
i'm sure that she'd walk some place else, like before.
i actually DO wish that she would go somewhere else.
would make things much easier.
will be better when it's dark in the mornings.

Mount her like a lion

not really bothered now bert.
just supposin she wanted a nobbin,
that would cause so much inner-conflict with me,
rights and wrong.
pros and cons etc.
and anyway,
there other considerations,
such as;
failing libido,
loss of virility,
my little tiddler,(well,tickler even.she might like that.)
premature ejaculation.(in the event that i actually GOT an erection.)
the list goes on and on.