voices in my head, a feeling of okayness,and because of ABKO.

with all this depession stuff going on,
yeah i know,because of me.
the mental arguing and contradiction,and the "what-ifs" that usually fill my mind,
have given way to calm,reasoned debate.
lots of "yeah-but'no-but"happening right now.

this is mainly due i think to ABKO's input,
and it's good,
not bad.

i suspect that the real 50 something erixter mindset of old SHALL ultimately overcome this period of soul-searching/questions and answers,and that it is just a passing phase,but hey!can't be doing any harm can it?
trouble is,
ABKO,inadvertantly or not,posted some strong stuff,thought-provoking stuff,and the bottom line IS,
he's right.

so why isn't it so bloody obvious to ME?

and there lies the rub.

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it's a poser alright.

and it IS at the forefront of my thinking right now.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

we'll see.

cider, eric, drink more and all becomes good

if not, chase it with some JD

trust me

yeah,
i know.

WELL THAT DIDN'T LAST LONG.

life is now a grind once more.

my body,legs especially,mind also,
hurting like hell,
feeling extemely fatigued.

and i really don't want to go work tonight.

there could be a storm brewing.
i hope not.

oh for peace and tranquillity.






i was gonna put up the "mad smilie",
but y'know what?
i just couldn't be bothered with it.